The schedule

Well I've done really well with our new "schedule", for the last 3 days at least:-) I have to say that I HATE waking up in the morning. It's a big downer for me, but when I do finally get outside to do my walk it's sooooo nice. Yesterday it rained(thought I was going to get out of exercise)but it quickly stopped:-/ when I got outside the trees were all wet and looked so alive and refreshed. Today the wind was blowing and I could hear the crickets over my ipod! the hardest part is starting the habit, I'm finding though that once I do it that I really like it. Sleeping in is not worth the wonderful feeling I get when I am accomplished. The boys are doing very good with school. Ethans lessons are a little work for me , but I'm sure it will get easier as I get used to them. Micah just plays games. He's keeping busy staying out of the way when I'm teaching Ethan:-) I love them. It amazes me how much energy they have and how different they think than girls.

A new day

Tomorrow starts the day for my imposed accountability to....... myself! I have decided to try some new vitamins and supplements to help lower my cravings for sugar and carbs. Hopefully it will work and get me motivated for exercise again. It's been pretty difficult this time to even think seriously about it. I've been so relaxed, I really have just not cared. The only thing driving me now is feeling tired all the time. So I WILL:

1. remember to take my vitamins
2. try to control my portions
3. not eat too much red meat or sugary sweets

I think that's good to start with. I'm looking forward to feeling better. This time last year I was 18 days away from birthing my beautiful baby girl. When I look back at the year I see how fast it went:-( Too fast. All I did was raise babies it seems. I know I did some other stuff too, we took a couple trips. The majority of my time was raising babies though. I can't say it was all fun. Some days I truthfully just wanted to run far far away. Being a mom has made me a stronger person, I have learned that it's not my will I live for, it's the perfect will of God. It was definitely worth it. In the end we will and do have a beautiful family with great people. I couldn't be more honored. I absolutely love that all my kids have totally different personalities and they are hilarious. I enjoy being around them. Most of the time:-)